My name is farhan, every day i do is study and study, but i dont like it.
When i was child, i liked to play , to fantasize and to watch with tiffany. Almost all the fantasy movies i have watched. The wonderland, i like this movie very much , i really want to go there. But now all has changed, because there is a little girl who has entered my soul, who has inspired me. Therefore, i’m not as stupid and lazy as before. If in the past , i have ever missed a class, never been a camphion in the class, always be scolded by teacher because i did not do the work. my mother always sclod me because i never study, now everything has changed it’s all like reversed 180 degress.
When i was in junor high school, tiffanny has told me about her admiration for islam. I often asked about islamic laws, luckily my understanding about islamic wide enough.
Day after day has passed, and i felt that i started loving her. I also felt,that tiffaniy felt the way i felt. But no one dare expressing these feelings. It was, shy mixed with fear to express this feeling in fron of her.
The final examination will come in a few weeks again will come, after that i will continue to university and leave my home town. This was hard for me because i must leave my parents, family , my friends , and tiffaniy although only for few years
One day when i want to go school, i saw tiffany to be with my classmate. His name is sony, not only this time i saw them together. That time, i wanted to be mad at them, it was very upset but i can not do anything.
From that day i began to understand about these all, about why tiffany never expressed her feelings, why she never wanted me to pick her up. My relationship with tiffany became bad after the event happen again. When she greeted me, i never replied to her greeting . I also never study together with her again. Althoug that , my spirit of learning never lost because i was very embarrased if she know that my score was low. for me it feels silly if i keep to thinking of it rather than learning. Maybe this is what calf love ....
The final examination happen today. And i have prepared it in advence. I felt ready because i have studied hard. I can do it well for day one, as well the second day to the last day of final examination. Somehow it feels that is a something wedge in my heart, I feel that i indebted to tiffaniy, without her I never be like this, although it fells like she betrayed me but my feeling for her was never gone .
In Four days i must go java island , and leave my home. I have a plan that before I leave I have to apologize to tiffaniy and and express my feelings although I know the answer is really painful.
this afternoon I will go to Java island , before that as i have planed i met tiffany.
“hello tif...”
“hello farhan...”
”, how are you?”
“wells, you will leave to day..., right?
“yeah, this right, who told you ?
“ sony...”
“oh tif, i want to apologize to you”
"Um, that ..., I already did .... forgiveness, not matter for me ..., you must want to focus on the exam ..."
"Oh, .... perhaps, but that's not the problem ..."
” so....?”
“no ..., no, no ..., forget it There is one thing that I wanted to say "
“ what is that ...”
“ i...,i..., i went to be your friend forever”
“Yaa ...., of course farhan"
"Yes .., you're right ... but I want more than that ...."
“ what do you mean ...”
I did not want to continue the talk, I feel regret why I did not dare to express that I like her ,express my trully feelings. if he did not mention sony again, maybe I will not cancel my intention.
I went to Java with sony. This is the most ridiculous thing in my life. Sony will enter the same university with me, and maybe he will also be at the same home with me.
One year has passed ......
22 October 2002.....
At that moment I was washing my clothes, sony got the news when his younger sister was killed because debris struck of Bali bombing. I was surprised and fortunately all of my family survived. Sony immediately went to the airpot for the flight to Bali.
Two weeks later ......
Sony came back with a bag and a large envelope in his hand.
"Hi, son, I hope you can accept all of this well ..."
"Yes, you're right .... you also have to be brave farhan ...."
"what Do you mean ...."
" take a look at this “
I opened the envelope, I read the letter and a diary that sony gave me. I was really surprised. Tiffaniy is sony younger sister , they live in the different house because their parents divorced, tiffaniy was raised by her mother , and sonny by is father, and during this time tiffaniy also like me and before the Bali bombing happened, tiffaniy has changed her name in to Fatimah because she had become a Muslim. I also read a few sentences in her diary that made me believe she that she liked me although now he was dead ..., gone for eternally.
"... I hope farhan be the prince and I was Alice who got lost in a magical country ..."
I feel regret and deeply feel regret. At the end of her letters he wrote one sentence that I'll always be remember.
"... I hope your faith grow, so that we can be together in the heaven someday "
"... I hope your faith grow, so that we can be together in the heaven someday "
And I still believe that love her would never die even though she was dead. And I believe I and her will be together in heaven one day.
